Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Time It Was, And What A Time It Was.

The moment I realized I hated who I was, I was lying alone on a couch, in an unfamiliar room, in an 

unfamiliar house. The two girls and the boy had gone to get something to eat in the next room. I lay 

there feeling cold, feeling the absence of his body next to mine, feeling more alone than I had. 

Thinking to myself "who am I?" As tears went down my face and I stared at that white door with the 

gold handle and the half moon shaped window with clouded glass. Staring at the ceiling silently 

praying and begging for help. I can still remember staring at that door. Realizing if I walked out, the 

wrong people would follow me. Or they wouldn't come at all. I was too alone. Earlier as I sat on the 

opposite side of the couch, next to the boy, the two girls facing us got up and went into the next room. 

I don't remember him asking but I do remember myself crawling to him, wanting for one moment to 

feel like I belonged somewhere. To feel safe. His words still ring in my ears "someone's eager" as I 

giggled thinking he would believe I was cute. Only later to be left crying on the couch, wondering 

why I let myself down. The boy would send me his pointless texts and I would respond the way I 

thought he would like. The moment I left for a few days I realized I was replaced. I was alone. I was 

a mess. I was so lost because for once in my life I felt abandoned, abandoned by my best friend, 

abandoned by the nameless boy, abandoned by my actual self, not realizing that my family was only a 

step away. I can still remember the moment I wished I had done something different with the people I 

met, how I treated them, and how I expected to be treated as a result. I remember the day I saw a little 

bit of light, something the slightest bit good, and I grabbed it, and I held onto it, and I watched it 

grow, and I watched myself grow, and I noticed that I wasn't so alone anymore.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Inner Musings

 
Olivia 1
 
I want that sweater....
 
 
Olivia 2
 
That sweater wants you just as much.
 
 
Olivia 1
 
I also want my hair colored.
 
 
Olivia 2
 
But how, will you afford both?
 
Olivia 1
 
I think i'll have to sacrifice the gas money. I need to save for college... but then again 70% is a hefty amount. Maybe I should go with 65%.....
 
Olivia 2
 
Ask your mom yo!
 
Olivia 1
 
Good Plan.
 
Olivia 2
 
Hey, i've got a question for you. Why is work so boing?
 
Olivia 1
 
Because there isnt anything to do.
 
Olivia 2
 
I wonder where Abi is.
 
Olivia 1
 
Why don't I wonder about Madeline for a change?
 
Olivia 2
 
No no. You already sent her a barn picture.
 
Olivia 1
 
This is much better than sitting here bored.
 
Olivia 2
 
Oh you are a silly girl.


Thursday, July 12, 2012

Come fly away! Come fly away! Come fly away with me!

Hello bloggers who don't read my blog anymore! I just wanted to pop in and say, "Hi!". Maybe I should write more... Can I get a "Yeehaw!"?? No? Fine then. Just go read Madeline's blog.

Washington
(17)

Olivia
I'll just play pocket planes now. It eases my troubled soul.

Abi
Meh meh meh! Let's take a walk on the beach.

Olivia
Must we? The wind in my hair and the sand between my toes? Ahh to dream again... Yes. A walk on the beach sounds pleasant. Want to come Mad?

Mad
No... I have... Things... To attend to... (as she reads from her book)

At the beach

Olivia
I'm on the beeeeaaacchhh looking for agates all of my time i've spent on them! Where have they all gone? Maybe I'm so wrong! I'll find a moonstone instead! (sung to the tune of "Pay phone")

Abi
Liv, sometimes your life, doesn't go quite as planned. When this happens to me, I say "Look world, this isn't what I planned!" and then I like to through a few punches, or gaze at the sea.

Olivia
I don't think that's exactly the case here abs. 

Director's Commentary:
This script is fictional this time. Except for pocket planes easing my troubled soul and annoying the heck out of me. What? What's that you say? I never said they annoyed the heck out of me? Well then. I'm saying it now. And also, Starbucks is a lifesaver and I love it. And sometimes life is tough and you feel like crying but it's for the better. There's a little bug crawling on the computer screen. At least I have a longer life span than it will eh? Well here's to you on your life! May the good times keep coming and the bad times move on as fast as they can! 
I'll blog again soon. Maybe.
Sincerely,
Director.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Nik Simmons

Nik

Hi. Just kidding i'm four and five. [Distant look] That would be stupid. Alright, and you can quote me on that. [Chuckles] Olivia is my best friend. And her blog rocks.


Olivia

Why thank you Nik, So flattered.


Nik

I dont know what to say. You cant put that! Gosh. Some people.


Olivia

That was very good Nik, makes for a good read.


Nik

You're stupid.


Olivia

Hahahaha I like this one. What do you have to say for yourself?


Nik

ummmm.... I'm a winner.


Olivia

Um Nik, past experiences would prove otherwise.


Nik

I'm gonna win this week. It'll put me in the playoffs for fantasy football.


Olivia

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N, Nik.


Nik

[Whistling] You should end the article now....


Directors Commentary:

Nik, is my famous friend, he writes poetry for a living. In fact im sitting next to him right now. Oh my goodness he just said he would write a poem for me. My heart is jumping out of my chest im soooooo excited.

Monday, October 24, 2011

1st trimester

What.

16 years.

int. Arts Building

Brock

Did you know that Tara is pregnant...?

Olivia

What!? Really?

Brock

Yeah! 15 weeks!

Olivia

Can you tell? Like, is it really obvious?

Brock

Yeah! She has a bump! She acts like she's proud of it.

Olivia

Well, I can't say I didnt see it coming.

End Scene.

Director's Commentary:
This story is very interesting to remember. I remember thinking that she got what she deserved, that she had to have known what she was getting herself into, that she was the same girl Norah and I got away from. But after the shock wore off I felt sorry for her. I wished that I had done more, and was a better friend to her. Tried to help her with her problems, even if I thought she was making them up. She was at a time one of my best friends, and then neither Norah nor me could take her anymore and so it stopped. I wonder what would have happened if we tolerated her for just a little longer. Maybe she just would have manipulated us more. The word "Friend" I have come to realize, is very complicated.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters!

f(x)=... something...

16 years.

Int. Vintage High School

Mr. Pepper

What would you say if this was due next time? We are going to do something fun today! I need you to fill in the empty seats in the rows and then we'll play a game!

[Grace turns to look at me as Henry stands up and walks to our side of the classroom]

Grace

I bet he's coming to sit by you!

Olivia

[Laughing, while hoping its true] Nah!

Henry

[Yelling] I call sitting by Olivia!

Olivia

[Smiles and laughs] Okay!!!

Directors commentary:
I like this story, it makes me feel special and everyone deserves to feel special right? I sure think so. To my two darling sisters, i'm happy you each found someone that makes you guys feel special. Love you guys.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Maybe I think you're cute and funny.

We could drum together

16 years.

Int. Basement of Home

Dad

[Randomly poping up] What are you doing? Proposing?

Olivia

Er... [Looks confused at Ryan, who happens to also be "random boy" from earlier post.]

Ryan

[Saving Olivia] Cool drums!

Dad

Oh yeah? You like to drum? Blah blah, Drum! Blah blah Snare! la la la Cowbell? I know! [Laughter] Come here and look at my other drums!

Olivia Thoughts

Did that really just happen? Did dad have really good timing? What if he had come down 20 minutes earlier....? huh. What are they doing?
[Olivia Pulls out phone and texts, "Goodbye VL..." To Norah, and Sunny. Then runs into the other room.]

Dad

-And thats when I got this one! Its oak and I has a really good sound to it, I just cant use it on my drum set right now. Well anyway, just wanted to come say hi! [Dad exits]

Ryan

[Looks light headed.] I have no idea what he was talking about!

Olivia

[Laughs] I figured.

20 Minutes later

Ryan

[Watching Olivia's phone recieve several texts in a row, then notices something else.] Uh... Someones calling you.

Olivia

[Not wanting him to know about her text] Oh! Thats just Norah! She just calls me really randomly sometimes, cause she lives in California and all...

Ryan

[Laughs and puts one arm around Olivia, squeezing her side and making her jump closer to him, he takes advantage of the situation and leans in for the second time.]

End Scene.

Directors Commentary:
When remembering that night, I never think too much on that part. It makes me wonder, what happened to best friends? I think about my best friends now, how they are wonderful and sweet, and in Norah's case, unchanging and always there. I remember the next day to with Sunny. How sad she was that she was the only one of us left, and how we arent as close as we use to be. Last but not least I wonder if sometimes we say 'Best friends' just for security, without any meaning, just to know that someone will be there. Sometimes I do.