You're all I have, you're all I need.

Excerpts From Olivia's Day

Mid Day

Resteraunt

Will

[Olivia, Will, and Auldon, are out to lunch together, something funny has been said and they all laugh together at the thought. Will mumbles to himself] Best lunch ever.

Afternoon

Hallway

Auldon

Okay livi, so pretend I choke you right now! What would you do?

Olivia

Uh-

Will

[Cuts Olivia off.] I would beat you up!

Afternoon

Will's truck

Auldon

Okay I need to get out now!

Olivia

[Opens the door and slides out, letting Auldon leave.] Bye!

Auldon

Love you!

Olivia

Oh! [laughs] Love you too!

End Scene

Directors Commentary:

These boys are my two favorite people. If I didnt have them right now, I dont know where i'd be! My friend Norah and I actually have a plan to marry them and live side by side in beach houses in Washington. We came up with that a year ago and I am still holding onto that.

sippin' horchata

shirt - Nordstrom [The Brass Plum], skirt - Anthropologie, socks - DSW, shoes - DSW

Texts from the phone of Olivia

Olivia and boy

[ Olivia and Boy have known eachother for a while. This is a segment from their conversation, mostly on this topic.]

Boy- I dont understand why it's such a big deal.

Olivia- It's just weird!

Boy- How is it weird?

Olivia- This is the first time you've talked to me in months and all you want to talk about is my body? Thats weird.

Boy- If you arent comfortable with your body, what can you be comfortable with?

Olivia- Oh I love my body, I just dont want to talk about it with you.

Boy- Why not?

Olivia- It's hard to believe you liked me for anything but my body, when its all you can talk about.

Boy- Olivia, I already told you. I dont just like you for your body.

[Somehow, boy decides to move on, hanging out is discussed, followed by no response from boy.]

Olivia is plagued by a terrible stomach ache that started the moment the boy texted her. Wondering why so randomly he would text her, the next day she texts him again to find out.

Probably Olivia's worst idea.

Olivia- Hey, so I have a question for you, why did you randomly text me on wednesday?

Boy- I felt like it.

Olivia- Oh hah. I was just wondering if it had a purpose or not.

Boy- I wanted to talk to you.

Olivia- Oh yeah? But you never have wanted to hang out?

Boy- I didn't say that.

Olivia- Well then why didnt we

Boy- Because if we ever hung out I would want to do more than kiss you.

Olivia- Well honestly, you wouldn't get more. I'm not like that! and it's hard to beleive you about not wanting me for my body when you saythings like that.

Boy- Olivia, guys like girls bodies, its just a fact of life. I like you for a lot more, along with that.

Olivia- Well why is that all you talk about!

Boy- Its not.

Olivia- Well when you talk to me it is!

Boy- We havent talked that much!

Olivia- So why, when we finally talk, is it about that?

Boy- I'm sorry Olivia, Is it really that touchy?

Olivia- Boy, Its not touchy, Its personal. My body is my buisness and has nothing to do with you, does it?

Boy- Your right, Damn, I'm sorry.

Olivia- It's fine. Im going to sleep, goodnight.

Directors Comentary:

While this scene was occuring I should have stopped him right when he started. I shouldn't have texted him again. I shouldn't have trusted him so much the first time we met. I shouldn't have said yes to that date. I shouldn't have been an idiot. But, what good do 'what if's' do? After I told my mom what happened we were laying on my bed and she said to me, "When someone you trusted, betrays you like that, and decides your an object, it hurts doesnt it?". Right when she said that, right when I knew she understood me and I could never ask for a better mother, the stomach ache that I had been plagued with every time I thought about the boy or the situation vanished. Moral of the story, don't let someone else decide your worth. Whenever I feel like I am, I remember my young women leaders voice whisper in my ear after testimony meeting, "You, are amazing."

We all are.

Double A Batteries

The Voice

6 years old.

Int. Olivia's Bedroom. Early Afternoon.

[Olivia Sits in the small space beside her dresser crying, Madeline and Abi enter the room and wander over to Olivia.]

Madeline

Why are you crying?

Abi

Yeah.

Olivia

Because I dont know what my real voice sounds like! [All the while moving her voice up and down.] Like I know I have a voice for when we are playing Digimon, and I have a low voice sometimes! What is my real voice!

Madeline

Liv, i'm sure you'll find it sometime. Let's go play dolls.

Olivia

[still pouting] Okay...

End Scene.

Director's Comentary:

This is one of my fondest memories of when I was younger. Perhapse because the other ones have to do with being outside in the sprinklers, or by the slide, or Abi and me in our yellow swimming suits watching baby buddy dance around soaking wet in his little blue onesie.

Crossed all the lines.

A Story.

16 years old.

Int. Olivia's Home. Late afternoon.

Olivia

[Crying very hard. Its is almost impossible to understand what she is saying. In a sobbing outburst she yells.] Mom! I am too young for this!

Mom

I know. [Walks over and rubs Olivia's shoulders.] Someday, you'll look back at this and see how little it is, how it barely matters at all.

Olivia

[Still crying] Why does it have to hurt this bad? Why would anyone do this to me? [Thinking back to what Abi had said.] Why didnt you tell me this would happen?

Mom

Come on, lets go out to dinner. You can get your mind off of it and it'll be fine.

~~~

Int. Cafe rio. Evening.

Olivia

[Holding back tears.] You're right! I'll be fine. It's gonna be okay tomorrow. It will be all over tomorrow. I dont need to worry. It'll be just fine again!

Mom

See? It's just fine!

End Scene.

Director's Comentary:

When living in this moment. I think at the time I knew that it probably wouldnt be okay. For the first time in a while I think I cryed myself to sleep, while checking my phone over and over again.

Sometimes, while I write this blog I think to myself 'Am I a good blogger?' Well, I don't think so. But at least I have my three trusty followers. Even if two of them are my sisters.

its true, I was made for you.

Callbacks

16 years old

Int. Arts Building. Night time.

[Olivia Waits in anticipation for her turn to go into the closed off room. Noticing a random boy who keeps glancing at her.]

Nichole

Olivia? It's your turn now.

Olivia

[Bites her thumbnail in a nervous responce.] Alright! [In a confident tone. It's called acting for a reason right?]

Bill

Alright! Olivia, you will be reading for the part of Miss Lilly.

~~~

Int. Arts builing, Stage. Later Night.

Bill

Okay, I know that it's usual to wait until the cast list is posted, but we kept you few behind because we wanted to tell you in person. Margaret will be played by, Jane. Understudy, Mckell. Miss Lilly will be played by Olivia. Understudy--

Olivia

[Lifts up her fists in a triumphant Olivia manner. Smiles and laughes. Olivia continues to think about the play and forgets to listen to the rest of the cast list.]

Nichole

So, if you'll line up over here, we can get you your scripts!

Olivia

[Hops off the stage and turns around. As she notices random the boy staring at her, she clears her throat.] So... What part did you get?

Random Boy

[Smiles in a way that is slightly annoying to Olivia] oh, Maxwell Stephens.

Olivia

[Gives him a confused, "your peculiar" look. Suddenly remembers that the part the boy had gotten and her own part were the each others love intrest] erm... Well thats good.

End Scene.