Nik Simmons

Nik

Hi. Just kidding i'm four and five. [Distant look] That would be stupid. Alright, and you can quote me on that. [Chuckles] Olivia is my best friend. And her blog rocks.

Olivia

Why thank you Nik, So flattered.

Nik

I dont know what to say. You cant put that! Gosh. Some people.

Olivia

That was very good Nik, makes for a good read.

Nik

You're stupid.

Olivia

Hahahaha I like this one. What do you have to say for yourself?

Nik

ummmm.... I'm a winner.

Olivia

Um Nik, past experiences would prove otherwise.

Nik

I'm gonna win this week. It'll put me in the playoffs for fantasy football.

Olivia

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N, Nik.

Nik

[Whistling] You should end the article now....

Directors Commentary:

Nik, is my famous friend, he writes poetry for a living. In fact im sitting next to him right now. Oh my goodness he just said he would write a poem for me. My heart is jumping out of my chest im soooooo excited.

1st trimester

What.

16 years.

int. Arts Building

Brock

Did you know that Tara is pregnant...?

Olivia

What!? Really?

Brock

Yeah! 15 weeks!

Olivia

Can you tell? Like, is it really obvious?

Brock

Yeah! She has a bump! She acts like she's proud of it.

Olivia

Well, I can't say I didnt see it coming.

End Scene.

Director's Commentary:

This story is very interesting to remember. I remember thinking that she got what she deserved, that she had to have known what she was getting herself into, that she was the same girl Norah and I got away from. But after the shock wore off I felt sorry for her. I wished that I had done more, and was a better friend to her. Tried to help her with her problems, even if I thought she was making them up. She was at a time one of my best friends, and then neither Norah nor me could take her anymore and so it stopped. I wonder what would have happened if we tolerated her for just a little longer. Maybe she just would have manipulated us more. The word "Friend" I have come to realize, is very complicated.

Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters!

f(x)=... something...

16 years.

Int. Vintage High School

Mr. Pepper

What would you say if this was due next time? We are going to do something fun today! I need you to fill in the empty seats in the rows and then we'll play a game!

[Grace turns to look at me as Henry stands up and walks to our side of the classroom]

Grace

I bet he's coming to sit by you!

Olivia

[Laughing, while hoping its true] Nah!

Henry

[Yelling] I call sitting by Olivia!

Olivia

[Smiles and laughs] Okay!!!

Directors commentary:

I like this story, it makes me feel special and everyone deserves to feel special right? I sure think so. To my two darling sisters, i'm happy you each found someone that makes you guys feel special. Love you guys.

Maybe I think you're cute and funny.

We could drum together

16 years.

Int. Basement of Home

Dad

[Randomly poping up] What are you doing? Proposing?

Olivia

Er... [Looks confused at Ryan, who happens to also be "random boy" from earlier post.]

Ryan

[Saving Olivia] Cool drums!

Dad

Oh yeah? You like to drum? Blah blah, Drum! Blah blah Snare! la la la Cowbell? I know! [Laughter] Come here and look at my other drums!

Olivia Thoughts

Did that really just happen? Did dad have really good timing? What if he had come down 20 minutes earlier....? huh. What are they doing?

[Olivia Pulls out phone and texts, "Goodbye VL..." To Norah, and Sunny. Then runs into the other room.]

Dad

-And thats when I got this one! Its oak and I has a really good sound to it, I just cant use it on my drum set right now. Well anyway, just wanted to come say hi! [Dad exits]

Ryan

[Looks light headed.] I have no idea what he was talking about!

Olivia

[Laughs] I figured.

20 Minutes later

Ryan

[Watching Olivia's phone recieve several texts in a row, then notices something else.] Uh... Someones calling you.

Olivia

[Not wanting him to know about her text] Oh! Thats just Norah! She just calls me really randomly sometimes, cause she lives in California and all...

Ryan

[Laughs and puts one arm around Olivia, squeezing her side and making her jump closer to him, he takes advantage of the situation and leans in for the second time.]

End Scene.

Directors Commentary:

When remembering that night, I never think too much on that part. It makes me wonder, what happened to best friends? I think about my best friends now, how they are wonderful and sweet, and in Norah's case, unchanging and always there. I remember the next day to with Sunny. How sad she was that she was the only one of us left, and how we arent as close as we use to be. Last but not least I wonder if sometimes we say 'Best friends' just for security, without any meaning, just to know that someone will be there. Sometimes I do.

like a midnight sun, your the only one.

I want to hold your hand

16 years old.

Int. Backstage.

Cameron

[Grabs Olivia's hand, then drops it] You're hands are really dry. I'm guessing your boyfriend doesn't hold your hand a lot.

Olivia

[Confused, she looks at Ryan for support. He looks just as confused as she does.] erm... I don't have a boyfriend...

Bill

[Angry] Olivia!!! Stop talking! When its your turn to talk, i'll let you know! @*!$&.

Olivia

[Sighs. Looks at Ryan, who apears slightly more annoyed than she is.]

1 Week Later. After Performance

Int. Audience seating

Abi

Uh... liv? Your director is staring at you.

Olivia

[Looks up to the sound booth where Bill has been told he is not allowed to come out of. Bill is staring at Olivia. Olivia puts on her prize winning smile and gives him a gracious wave.] Oh my gosh that is so creepy. Lets just go.

End Scene.

Director's Comentary:

Not really a cherished memory. Something from a time capsul. But plays, scripts, and music are on my mind as I have an audition coming up. Wish me luck! I'm hoping I wont have another Thoroughly Modern experience.

You're all I have, you're all I need.

Excerpts From Olivia's Day

Mid Day

Resteraunt

Will

[Olivia, Will, and Auldon, are out to lunch together, something funny has been said and they all laugh together at the thought. Will mumbles to himself] Best lunch ever.

Afternoon

Hallway

Auldon

Okay livi, so pretend I choke you right now! What would you do?

Olivia

Uh-

Will

[Cuts Olivia off.] I would beat you up!

Afternoon

Will's truck

Auldon

Okay I need to get out now!

Olivia

[Opens the door and slides out, letting Auldon leave.] Bye!

Auldon

Love you!

Olivia

Oh! [laughs] Love you too!

End Scene

Directors Commentary:

These boys are my two favorite people. If I didnt have them right now, I dont know where i'd be! My friend Norah and I actually have a plan to marry them and live side by side in beach houses in Washington. We came up with that a year ago and I am still holding onto that.

sippin' horchata

shirt - Nordstrom [The Brass Plum], skirt - Anthropologie, socks - DSW, shoes - DSW

Texts from the phone of Olivia

Olivia and boy

[ Olivia and Boy have known eachother for a while. This is a segment from their conversation, mostly on this topic.]

Boy- I dont understand why it's such a big deal.

Olivia- It's just weird!

Boy- How is it weird?

Olivia- This is the first time you've talked to me in months and all you want to talk about is my body? Thats weird.

Boy- If you arent comfortable with your body, what can you be comfortable with?

Olivia- Oh I love my body, I just dont want to talk about it with you.

Boy- Why not?

Olivia- It's hard to believe you liked me for anything but my body, when its all you can talk about.

Boy- Olivia, I already told you. I dont just like you for your body.

[Somehow, boy decides to move on, hanging out is discussed, followed by no response from boy.]

Olivia is plagued by a terrible stomach ache that started the moment the boy texted her. Wondering why so randomly he would text her, the next day she texts him again to find out.

Probably Olivia's worst idea.

Olivia- Hey, so I have a question for you, why did you randomly text me on wednesday?

Boy- I felt like it.

Olivia- Oh hah. I was just wondering if it had a purpose or not.

Boy- I wanted to talk to you.

Olivia- Oh yeah? But you never have wanted to hang out?

Boy- I didn't say that.

Olivia- Well then why didnt we

Boy- Because if we ever hung out I would want to do more than kiss you.

Olivia- Well honestly, you wouldn't get more. I'm not like that! and it's hard to beleive you about not wanting me for my body when you saythings like that.

Boy- Olivia, guys like girls bodies, its just a fact of life. I like you for a lot more, along with that.

Olivia- Well why is that all you talk about!

Boy- Its not.

Olivia- Well when you talk to me it is!

Boy- We havent talked that much!

Olivia- So why, when we finally talk, is it about that?

Boy- I'm sorry Olivia, Is it really that touchy?

Olivia- Boy, Its not touchy, Its personal. My body is my buisness and has nothing to do with you, does it?

Boy- Your right, Damn, I'm sorry.

Olivia- It's fine. Im going to sleep, goodnight.

Directors Comentary:

While this scene was occuring I should have stopped him right when he started. I shouldn't have texted him again. I shouldn't have trusted him so much the first time we met. I shouldn't have said yes to that date. I shouldn't have been an idiot. But, what good do 'what if's' do? After I told my mom what happened we were laying on my bed and she said to me, "When someone you trusted, betrays you like that, and decides your an object, it hurts doesnt it?". Right when she said that, right when I knew she understood me and I could never ask for a better mother, the stomach ache that I had been plagued with every time I thought about the boy or the situation vanished. Moral of the story, don't let someone else decide your worth. Whenever I feel like I am, I remember my young women leaders voice whisper in my ear after testimony meeting, "You, are amazing."

We all are.

Double A Batteries

The Voice

6 years old.

Int. Olivia's Bedroom. Early Afternoon.

[Olivia Sits in the small space beside her dresser crying, Madeline and Abi enter the room and wander over to Olivia.]

Madeline

Why are you crying?

Abi

Yeah.

Olivia

Because I dont know what my real voice sounds like! [All the while moving her voice up and down.] Like I know I have a voice for when we are playing Digimon, and I have a low voice sometimes! What is my real voice!

Madeline

Liv, i'm sure you'll find it sometime. Let's go play dolls.

Olivia

[still pouting] Okay...

End Scene.

Director's Comentary:

This is one of my fondest memories of when I was younger. Perhapse because the other ones have to do with being outside in the sprinklers, or by the slide, or Abi and me in our yellow swimming suits watching baby buddy dance around soaking wet in his little blue onesie.

Crossed all the lines.

A Story.

16 years old.

Int. Olivia's Home. Late afternoon.

Olivia

[Crying very hard. Its is almost impossible to understand what she is saying. In a sobbing outburst she yells.] Mom! I am too young for this!

Mom

I know. [Walks over and rubs Olivia's shoulders.] Someday, you'll look back at this and see how little it is, how it barely matters at all.

Olivia

[Still crying] Why does it have to hurt this bad? Why would anyone do this to me? [Thinking back to what Abi had said.] Why didnt you tell me this would happen?

Mom

Come on, lets go out to dinner. You can get your mind off of it and it'll be fine.

~~~

Int. Cafe rio. Evening.

Olivia

[Holding back tears.] You're right! I'll be fine. It's gonna be okay tomorrow. It will be all over tomorrow. I dont need to worry. It'll be just fine again!

Mom

See? It's just fine!

End Scene.

Director's Comentary:

When living in this moment. I think at the time I knew that it probably wouldnt be okay. For the first time in a while I think I cryed myself to sleep, while checking my phone over and over again.

Sometimes, while I write this blog I think to myself 'Am I a good blogger?' Well, I don't think so. But at least I have my three trusty followers. Even if two of them are my sisters.

its true, I was made for you.

Callbacks

16 years old

Int. Arts Building. Night time.

[Olivia Waits in anticipation for her turn to go into the closed off room. Noticing a random boy who keeps glancing at her.]

Nichole

Olivia? It's your turn now.

Olivia

[Bites her thumbnail in a nervous responce.] Alright! [In a confident tone. It's called acting for a reason right?]

Bill

Alright! Olivia, you will be reading for the part of Miss Lilly.

~~~

Int. Arts builing, Stage. Later Night.

Bill

Okay, I know that it's usual to wait until the cast list is posted, but we kept you few behind because we wanted to tell you in person. Margaret will be played by, Jane. Understudy, Mckell. Miss Lilly will be played by Olivia. Understudy--

Olivia

[Lifts up her fists in a triumphant Olivia manner. Smiles and laughes. Olivia continues to think about the play and forgets to listen to the rest of the cast list.]

Nichole

So, if you'll line up over here, we can get you your scripts!

Olivia

[Hops off the stage and turns around. As she notices random the boy staring at her, she clears her throat.] So... What part did you get?

Random Boy

[Smiles in a way that is slightly annoying to Olivia] oh, Maxwell Stephens.

Olivia

[Gives him a confused, "your peculiar" look. Suddenly remembers that the part the boy had gotten and her own part were the each others love intrest] erm... Well thats good.

End Scene.

Thoroughly Modern.

Thoroughly Modern Millie Rehearsal

16 years old

Int. Arts Building. Evening.

[Olivia walks into rehearsal sporting the new extensions she had gotten for her role. Olivia has shown up strangely on time today. She notices that it is only her and her director Bill.]

Bill

Olivia, did you get extensions!? [Looking suprised and

impressed]

Olivia

[Laughs] Yes! I did! [Twirls around in an Olivia manner.]

Bill

Well dont take this the wrong way, but that is sexy!!!

Olivia

[with defences up, as Bill is a late thirties, early fourties man] Oh... Erm... Thanks Bill.

[Olivia quickly walks away to sit on the stage.]

End Scene.

Jr. Mints

Jr. Mint Party

15 years old

Int. Norah's Room. Night time.

[Olivia lays on Norah's bed watching the movie playing on Norah's computer. Norah sits on the floor. Olivia and Norah are joking around and eating Jr. Mints while Tara is in the hallway on the phone arguing with her father. Tara hangs up her phone and enters the room.]

Tara

I thought he would never leave me alone! Ugh! [Falls onto bed holding her head in frustration. Tears slide down her cheeks.] Sometimes I think he hates me! Neither of you understand!

Norah

Oh well! Isn't this movie the best? ah I just love it so much! Its BEAUTIFUl. I watched it one time with Suzan and after she didn't say anything but, "That was beautiful." She was right!

Olivia

Tara? Do you want to talk about it? are you alright? Yeah, Norah this movie is good.

Tara

[dramatically] No! It's fine. I'm fine. He wants me to stop singing. They already took away letting me do my voice group. I just don't know!

Olivia

Well... I'm going to be in a play soon. You should ask if you can audition with me! I think that would be really fun and then you could still t sing.

Tara

[Excited] I'll ask! It'll probably be a no... But I will ask!

Olivia

Norah! You should audition too! Then we could all do it together!

Norah

Oh, no thanks... The last play I was in was Pirates of Penzance. It was so awesome! I was 10 or so. But I have a problem with doing stuff like that in front of people.

Olivia

Oh, that's to bad... Well Tara, you really should ask. It would be so fun!

[Olivia smiles to herself thoughtfully and thinks that this time she found her real friends.]

End Scene.

Mistakes

Setting: Gym Locker Room

Time: After gym around 9:00 a.m. 10 th grade.

People: Me, S, J, Extras.

*Changing after playing "Lacrosse" in gym*

S: "Olivia, I don't want this to seem creepy or anything... but your boobs, are HUGE."

Me: "Oh... Erm... Yes..."

J: "It's true..."

S: "Why don't you show them off more?"

Me: "Because I don't want to..."

I think to myself as I grab my bag out of the small locker, 'Why don't I show them off? Flaunt what you've got right? No... No, thats weird. Maybe if I only show a little bit. She'll like me more right?'So I pull my tank top down just a tiny tiny bit.

Sometimes I think to myself, 'Why do I do stupid things? Why do I let people influence me so much? Why couldn't I just do what I know is right? Where is my head?' And then I think of that poem I said over and over again when I was making a bracelet that kept breaking.

try, try, try again,

if at first you dont succeed,

try, try, try agian.

This time i'm going to do it right.

Regrets

Leaning against the wall,

Just a poster,

Face down,

To avoid seeing it,

I lift it up,

and hand it to someone,

who will do something with it,

I dont look at it,

hopefully its gone for a while.

turquoise

I had a thought today, that left me flustered into the evening. And while sitting by a campfire with people I almost knew it was that random thought, that kept banging on my head like a woodpecker.

Someday I'm going to have big bird cages at my wedding, filled with exotic birds like Toucans and Parrots and Parakeets and then when I'm married I will let them all out and then ride on a lion with my husband in Africa.

When I told my mother this at a reception later that night, she told me she would not be attending my wedding.

Then later that night, when I was sitting by the campfire, I said to my friend, "Maybe we should go on a walk." Then I just disregarded the thought. And then she kept bothering me. Saying, "We should go on that walk now, we should go on a walk." So then, when we went on a walk they said, "We should go back now, we should go back." What do people want with me?

Wanna know a secret? THAT WASN'T EVEN THE THOUGHT.

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